Everytime I either tell my friends what my word count is currently at or they see it (because I have it on my AIM status) they say "fuck you" to me. The first few times it was amusing. Now it has gotten old. I can't help that I know and love my story enough to be able to sit down and write it without having to think too hard about what I'm writing. It is also a story that I've been thinking of for awhile so I know it pretty well. (not to mention I attempted to write it last year and it came out so shitty I was determined to rewrite it this year.) They make it sound like its MY fault that my WC is a few thousand words higher than their's. So what?! Two things could happen later this month: a) I slow way down because I'm working or b) I finish quicker than everyone else. If it ends up being choice b, then that gives me more time to get presents knitted or write more of the story. Either way I will be happy.

I just wish everyone would stop saying fuck you to me. It isn't funny anymore. We all write differently and in different styles. And it isn't like I'm the only one with over 5,000 words.

I'm exhausted but happy! NaNoWriMo started tonight and we even got an extra hour because DST ended! So all the clocks went back an hour, giving us NaNoers another hour to write in November. I'm actually going to bed during that hour. Normally I would never dream about it but my novel this year is being so easy to write that I'm sure I'll be able to easily write what I would in that hour plus much more later today.

What I'm going to do for all my NaNo posts is end it with my word count. Well, maybe not ALL my NaNo posts, but at least the ones before I go to bed or when I finish writing for the day. Whichever one comes first.

Final wordcount for the first night: 2,212

So this morning I got really inspired. Unfortuntately, not for my NaNo. I got inspired for my Hyoga fanfiction that I was planning to write after NaNoWriMo. Now I want to write it for NaNo. The only thing is that I'm not sure I know enough about it to be able to come up with 50,000 words, even if I combine the three fics I'm thinking about (the first one, a mini fic, and then the sequel to the first) into one. If I had gotten this much inspiration for it say... a couple days ago, or even yesterday it would be a different story. But with only today to plan? Ugh...

I'm not sure which story I'll end up doing, the Hyoga fanfiction or my original idea? I'll figure out something, I always do right?

So.. while I was in the bathroom this morning due to not feeling well, (I know its TMI but there is a reason I'm telling you) I got inspired for another novel. Acutally, I was more thinking about a previous novel series idea I had and just adapted it some. I don't have a summary yet because its too early for that but it may end up being my '10 NaNo. I'm not going to say that it will be because its too early to know if I want to write this or something else. I am however, going to work on planning it all year.

The idea is that there are five (or four I haven't decided if I want the element of Spirit in this or not) mages for each element. Ariel is fire, Elvina is water, Flynn is earth and Christi is air. If I have spirit, the mage of spirit will be Mia. Each mage will get a "book" which will end up being one novel and then a final one to tie them all together, or if Mia is there, her story will tie all of them together because the element of spirit is in everything.

My original idea was that there are six books in total - one for creating a mirror in which chosen girls from the human world are sucked into this other world that is very different from their own. They are given the power of a god if they complete the tasks at hand and are allowed a total of 3 wishes. Creation of the Mirror - that was my first NaNo. I never got it finished. For those of you who haven't seen it, the series was inspired by Fushigi Yugi where certain girls (Miaka and Yui for the anime) are pulled into a book called The Universe of the Four Gods. They have to then find the seven warriors of each god and for Miaka that was Suzaku. Once this happens and they summon the beast god, she will be given 3 wishes.

I don't really want a girl being sucked into another world and having to be granted wishes because of a task she does. I think my newer idea is much better. ♥ This really may end up being my novels for 2010-2013/2014. I will need to decide about Mia first before I can do much more.

I know I'm being overly excited about this, especially since I'm not even sure if I'll win because I start work soon too but...

NANOWRIMO STARTS IN 24 HOURS!!

I'm so excited! Kara or as I know her, dnatheory, from HPKCHC has agreed to be my beta. *waves excitedly to her* I'm all bouncy and excited now.

I am actually tired of writing fanfictons. It only took... 6 years. Better late than never I suppose. I was reading over my list of fanfics I have yet to write and thought to myself 'I come up with some pretty good ideas. Why do I waste my talent on something I can never publish...?' Actually, no. That was the second thought. The first was 'I really don't think I want to write fanfics anymore.' That isn't to say I will never write fanfictions again. I just will focus on my own stories and write fanfics sometimes. The hardest part, I think, will be weaning my muse off of fanfictions. They're so easy to get inspired for! If I can get inspired by a song and make myself write it with my own characters, it will be a step in the right direction.

I might even still write a fanfic or two for a friend if they ask. But they never do. Hmm.. maybe I should try to recall my fictionpress account? Or do you think it would just be better if I posted my stories here? Actually... I think I have been posting my stories here because they are fanfiction. So I ask you, should I post my original stories here? Or because they are original, just post excerpts? I don't really know how I feel about others reading my original works of fiction. My friends I have no problem with, but with people I don't know I do. I fear someone stealing my idea/story and going to a publisher and getting it published first. One day I really do want to get some of what I've written published.

My first goal for 2010 is to write as many fanfics on my list as I can before it is time to plan for NaNoWriMo '10. So... September at the latest? It takes me more than a month to plan for NaNo. I can at least make a nice dent in my list by then I think. That is.. if my muse doesn't run away again like she did last year. I've hardly written this year because it took her almost all year to come back.

Title: Last One Standing
Author: Fiona fionarokkar
Fandom: Saint Seiya
Genre: Friendship
Rating: PG-13
Wordcount: 2,200
Summary: On the anniversary of when the battle against Hades ended over 200 years ago, Dohko thinks about and misses his friend. Shion didn’t die in the war. He died because he stood in Ares’ way of killing Athena when she was a baby.
Notes: Dohko's memories are in italics



I sometimes write a songfic or oneshot for the Gold Saint's birthdays. Today is Dohko's, who is the beautiful Libra Saint. You kind of know who he is before the Hades Chapter but mostly he is referred to as "Teacher" because he is Dragon Shiryu's master. In the Hades Chapter he reveals himself. When I first saw him, my jaw dropped at how hot he is. XD

Its so unfair... Everyone else seems to always have one but I never do. And wtf am I supposed to do, just message some random person listed in the beta section for one of the animes I write and ask them to beta shit for me. I'd just feel... weird about doing that. I can try updating my profile so anyone reading it knows I'm looking for a beta but I'm not sure how much of a difference it would make. No one really even reads my fics. Most of the few reviews I get are something along the lines of "its awesome please continue!". And thats even when they bother to spell out please. I know fan fiction.net is littered with crappy fanfic writers but surely there aren't enough good ones still out there who will bother to read stuff from time to time?

But honestly, its not just my fan fiction. Not even my friends, my friends dammit, can be bothered to read anything I write. Its really disheartening, y'know. And yet, every time I mention a whisper of feeling like quitting writing, everyone can't shut up about how much they like my writing. Wtf? I just.. I don't know. I feel like I'm in a weird place about all this beta stuff. But really, it isn't fair. I know life isn't fair, but I almost never get positive feedback, besides crappy reviews, on anything. Even from my friends. If that doesn't make me want to quit, I don't know what will.

So.. Because QS writes fanfiction, mostly Kingdom Hearts though, it made me want to go back to fanfiction.net since that is where she posts hers. I looked at hers and then decided to redo mine after relooking at mine. It took me a minute to even remember my password. XD After like an hour to two hours, I finally finished it. You can find it here. I've posted my list of current and soon to be current fanfictions. And a couple of old fanfictions so its not completely blank. I need to write stuff so I can put it up but only oneshots will be posted until after NaNo when I will have time for a chaptered fic.

And... I can't think of anything else to say about it. XD

I've finally figured out my synopsis for this year's NaNo. I kept telling people about it but never really had something to tell them so I'd have to try to summarize the novel in a couple sentences on the spot. Now I have it so I can just copy/paste.

Synopsis: The Secret of a Rose

Lia is one the few remaining starlight foxes left alive. It is once she meets the thief Shiloh that she begins to feel like she has a purpose in life. The seer Aimee reveals to her that she is key in saving the remaining starlights and keeping their race from becoming extinct. Later she finds herself face to face with the very demon who has sought to wipe out all starlights. After barely escaping with her life, she has to make a decision: seek revenge for her clan or follow the path laid out before her? If she decides revenge, she must become stronger or she will only end up being killed like many others before her. Aimee tells her to follow her path of destiny but it is Shiloh's words that make the most sense to her. He tells her to do what is in her heart.

Ugh. This is just great. I was talking to my friend QS who, once she found out I write some fanfiction, asked for my fanfiction.net link. It took me awhile to get it because ff.net was being retarded. When I finally did, I went through to see what fanfics I'd favorited. I decided to read one again and then its sequel. Bad idea. It resparked my Digimon interest (they were digimon fanfics) and my desire to write fanfictions part-time. I've also been thinking about Shaka and Tim a lot. All of this is making me want to write fanfics again! But I refuse to write fanfiction for NaNo. Even if its one time during the year, I will write an original story. All the ones I classify as "novels" in my writing folders will be original. No fanfictions.

Right now my hand is twitching in effort to keep me from starting to write fanfictions now. I can't! Its too close to NaNo to take on any new projects. Smaller fanfics, like songfics and one shots, are okay though. I usually do oneshots when I'm doing something for the character's birthday. Speaking of which, I need to come up with an idea for Tim and Milo's birthday fics. Dohko's is later this month and I already know what I'm going to write, I just need to do it.

I was browsing the NaNo forums today and saw a topic on making a NaNo scrapbook. It's a really great idea! The person who posted it said to go out and get something like a photo album or something. I don't want to have to buy anything and when I looked around my room, I got a great idea. Why not use a compostition notebook instead? I've got plenty of them and then I can use it as a journal that focuses on my NaNo adventures before, through, and after. Plus it will give me a place to keep a record of all my word wars this year! I've already started it too. For the month of October I'm going to have a countdown to NaNo and talk a bit about my process of planning and how I'll be doing NaNoWriMo this year. In November I'm, obviously, going to keep a record of my word wars by day and before I go to bed at night, I'll write down how much I got written that day plus my total word count. December will be when I go back and read over my novel and begin the editing process. (Maybe this year I'll learn how to edit..)

I'm exited. Its a really neat idea. I want to get some stickers and stuff for it but right now I'm lacking in money. So maybe I'll just draw in it with different colored pens and markers.

I'm so happy! I've made a couple of new NaNo friends tonight. One of which has me deciding to really get back into astrology. Sure, I mention astrology sometimes but I really love it. Nova and Riku remember how much I was into it when we were into Saint Seiya. Part of that was because we were into Saint Seiya at the time. It's one of my favorite anime for two reasons besides the hot Saints: Mythology and Astrology. The Gold Saints = The 12 signs of the zodiac.

Anyway. With the help of my new friend, I now have my chart. I'm a double Cancer. XD I knew it! There are actually four signs that you have. Your sun sign of course (I don't know a person who doesn't know what their's is. I am on the cusp of Gemini/Cancer even though some say not.), your moon sign, ascending (that is, the sign that was coming up when you were born) and decending (the sign across from yours). Here are mine:

Sun sign: Cancer
Moon sign: Cancer
Ascending: Leo
Decending: Capricorn

At the very least, everyone can figure out their sun and decending signs, right? XD

All this astrology talk has me thinking seriously of coming up with a novel focused heavily on astrology. Aside from that I have no idea what the novel would be about. XD This is why I love the NaNo time of year. I make new friends who always seem to help me get new ideas. Not that all my other friends don't. But I get different ideas with new friends.

OMG yay! Time totally ran away from me and only when Beeca said something did I remember that the NaNo site relaunch is tonight! Every year they relaunch the site to archive the previous year's forums and add/change some stuff.

I've decided, since I last updated about NaNo, to rewrite last year's NaNo. Last year's NaNo was called Secret of the Rose and this year's will be The Secret of a Rose. If I can come up with a better suiting title I'll use it. But I actually think it suits the plot quite well. I'm rewriting it because last year's novel has the potential to be an amazing story. I did so little thinking before I planned out the little I did. If I had, maybe I wouldn't have made Aara so damn insecure about her destiny. Oh that's one of the things I changed - Aara is staying my character for Yu Yu Hakusho. So instead Liara (which was Aara's full name) will be Lia.

I don't have a summary for it yet but I'm working on it. I do however, have about a fourth of the story outlined. The profiles will be kind of easy because they'll at least be based on one of the characters from my previous NaNo. That helps.

I redid the stuff in my filebox this morning. And in it were a couple of old (and crappy) fanfics. Various fandoms, mostly Yu Yu Hakusho, but some were Saint Seiya fanfics. And reading them and then hearing the song one was inspired by made me want to rethink my Shaka fic. ..So I am. I'm also thinking about my Mu and Hyoga fics. But there is really no way I can write anything and finish it before NaNo. If I'm in the middle of a story when NaNo hits, I'll want to write it instead!

I know, I know. Why not just write the fanfiction for NaNo? Although it would get them written, I like doing original stories for NaNo. It makes me think of my own stories, my own worlds. Y'know? So after NaNo is over I'm going to rewrite my Shaka fic. Or write Mu's. I haven't decided which yet.

Title: The Promise of Love
Chapter Title: Training with Shaka
Author: Fiona (fionarokkar)
Fandom: Saint Seiya
Pairing: Shaka/OFC
Genre: Romance
Rating: PG-13
Wordcount: 3,221
Summary: Risa is found a short way from the Aries Temple covered in cuts and bruises. After spending a week in a coma, she comes to knowing very little. One thing is certain, she is a Saint of Athena, even without having had a day of training. Shaka looks after her upon request of Athena. What he didn’t count on was falling in love with her. Risa is always quiet, scared of being hurt again. Can Shaka help her see that he will keep her safe and to trust him when he tells her he loves her?
Notes: Italics is Risa's vision. Bold is her thoughts.



In the anime and manga, they don't really explain to you the training that the Gold Saints go through so I'm having to make this up as I go. Shaka's is easier than some of the others because he's my favorite. One of the hardest ones will be Deathmask because he's an evil bastard. Which means his training will probably be worse than even Ikki's.

I got a bunch of new books yesterday at my local library's Friends of the Library thingy. I went to one in Florida that was HUGE. We had to sit outside after six am just to be within the first 100 people in the door. It took me awhile to find anything at this one but with Mom's help I found some stuff.

I found a set of The World's 100 Greatest Short Stories. There's actually two missing in the set but thats all of it they had. The rest of what I got were non-fiction. One was a Beginner's German book. Another was European culture. I also got two cookbooks but I can't remember the titles off hand. Mom found me a book on Synonyms, Antonyms, and Propositions. It looks pretty useful.

I'm excited about the books I got. Not bad for a small town library, eh?

I got this idea last night before bed as I was talking to my cat Selena.

Title: A Feline World

Summary: Cats are an animal that we humans have come to love very much. But what is it really like in the world of a cat? It is surprisingly different.

..What do you think? I think it'll be very amusing to write. Of course I'll start writing it after I finish my Shaka fic.

Saint Seiya is an anime focused on astrology and mythology. Mostly they use Greek mythology but there is a bit of Norse added for awhile. Its really focused on Athena, the Goddess of Wisdom and the astrology signs. There are three groups of Saints (Warriors who fight with their hands for Athena): Bronze, Silver, and Gold. The Gold Saints have the constellations of the Zodiac. The rest are divided into Silver and Bronze. You mostly hear about five Bronze Saints. Seiya (pegasus), who is the main character, Hyoga (cygnus), Shiryu (dragon), Shun (andromeda), and Ikki (phoenix). Their goal is to always protect Athena who has been reborn as a girl named Saori.

The first chapter is about taking back Sanctuary from the God Ares who had possessed the Gemini Saint, Saga, and he killed the Pope Shion. After that, the Gold Saints help out the Bronze Saints some. During the saga of the 12 houses, the Saints of Gemini, Cancer, Capricon, Aquarius, and Pisces were killed. The Saint of Sagittarius had been killed by Saga while trying to protect infant!Athena.

The main information to remember for the fanfiction I write for Saint Seiya is this: The Saints are born under certain stars and later become a Saint of that star. (example: Hyoga being born under the stars of Cygnus and later becoming the Saint of Cygnus) Also, I have all the Gold Saints alive. I don't like how some of them die. You also need to remember that everyone has a mini cosmos within them and it is from that cosmos that they can find their power that enables them to fight with their hands.

Title: The Promise of Love
Chapter Title: The Unknown Girl
Author: Fiona (fionarokkar)
Fandom: Saint Seiya
Pairing: Shaka/OFC
Genre: Romance
Rating: PG-13
Wordcount: 2,394
Summary: Risa is found a short way from the Aries Temple covered in cuts and bruises. After spending a week in a coma, she comes to knowing very little. One thing is certain, she is a Saint of Athena, even without having had a day of training. Shaka looks after her upon request of Athena. What he didn’t count on was falling in love with her. Risa is always quiet, scared of being hurt again. Can Shaka help her see that he will keep her safe and to trust him when he tells her he loves her?

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I hope you enjoyed it. I've figured out something about how I write. When I get into a story, if I'm constantly working on it, then I have a higher chance of actually finishing it. When I let it sit around for awhile, I get into other things. By the time I get back to the story, my inspiration for it is gone. So I'm going to try to work on this story a little bit everyday.

I've been doing absolutely no writing all month. I haven't even been planning my upcoming NaNo. Well, sort of. I've figured out the basic idea of the novel and the main characters. There's really two parts to the novel since the FMC can speak to and see ghosts. Here's the summary:

Summary: Phoebe is just your average high school student, or so she thought. Lately she's started seeing and hearing ghosts. And they're saying that she is the only one who can help them. At first she refuses to believe them but when things begin to happen that she can't explain, she begins to. With the help of a few close friends, Phoebe sets out on an adventure to save both the spirits around her and the people she cares about.

I haven't quite figured out anything about the ghosts who ask for her help and even without having them figured out, I should be able to outline some of the story. Unfortunately, nothing's coming to mind. I'm sure something will come. I just need to work on it more.

Fandom: Yu Yu Hakusho
Main Pairing: Aara/Kuronue
Length: 1,614 words

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Fandom: Yu Yu Hakusho
Main Pairing: Aara/Kuronue
Length: 3,159 words
Warning: Part of this gets a bit rated R/NC-17. I've labeled the section that gets NC-17. If you want to skip it, read until the first label, marking the beginning of the section. Then skip until the label marking the end of it.

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Fandom: Yu Yu Hakusho
Main Pairing: Aara/Kuronue
Length: 1,985 words

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The first part of a crazy Yu Yu Hakusho RP with my best friend Nova. She and I do some of the craziest roleplays.

Fandom: Yu Yu Hakusho
Main Pairing: Aara/Kuronue
Length: 2,422 words

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